IM Addict...

Even though we've never touched in the physical form, you've touched my heart in ways I could only dream of. With every word, we tip toe around what is to be inevitable. A life filled with unforgettable times. A romance that transcends any rhyme or reason. I've never spoke two sentences to you, but typed away until my hands cramped and formed small blisters on the tips. We've clicked on so many levels. Click after click of the mouse, the enter button, the keystrokes becoming faster in order to get off of my mind what I planned on saying once again. Then you type something that blows me off track. Delete, Del, ctrl X.

What can I say next, too long of a pause, methodically planning something idiotic to say, maybe she'll think it's funny? What was I thinking, she isn't from here. The understanding of the slang doesn't interpret well. Hmm, maybe I'll try saying this... But not sure if she understands what I said. What is this little smiley face with the tongue out? Does that mean she's teasing me, or maybe she's hungry for more. Eager to figure her out, but I think she has me pinned. When I type something, she is already analyzing it like a super computer. Looking for the the inner meaning of what I said when I said, "I like cheese grilled in between sliced bread."

Maybe it's all in my head. Even the thought we could be anymore than pin pals joking about barbecue sauce covering my face, staining my last good white t-shirt. Maybe I'm fooling myself into believing this to be something real, because I've grown tired of being lonely even when around company. Doomed to rest in this same familiar place, in front of this lame computer coming up with the same old garbage I said just recently. I want something new, something unfamiliar. I want to go into unchartered waters without a clue on how it will turn out. Expecting the worst and hoping for the best.

I am an IM Addict for you...