Mysterious

In the wake of a new life blooming,
There you were.
All of you, surrounded by a mythical haze
Looking heavenly pure.

Could this be a dream,
A mirage created from the desert heat?
No clue to who you are
But are destiny was to meet.

Weak knees buckle
But the approach to you was smooth.
The first interaction with you,
Somewhat rough and rude.

The bubble entrapping
That sweet soul of yours was strong.
The force field held up,
Hoping it doesn't last long.

Working to chip away
At what causes you to hide.
Enter light from the darkness
You hold inside.

Could this dream be
More of the same nightmares?
Hoping to pierce your soul
With nothing but tender loving care.

Was it truly our destiny to meet
With passions to collide,
Or was it just a dream
Within a dream of a nightmare
Waking up to a soak filled pillow with:
Tears of joy, tears of life, and tears from you...
Lying right beside.

So Do You?

Thoughts perish in my mind
Yet sometimes embarrassed.
Embarrassing moments
Embed my ego's
Altered state of resentment.
A testament
Of how one's true color shines.
Minds work in mysterious ways,
Yet delirious of how it's portrayed.
Afraid of one's shadow
While wading in a shallow creek.
Deep thoughts always
Drown and vanish,
Very seldom do they stay.
Delay the shedding
Of one's protective coat,
So some thoughts don't soak.
Choke then giggle and laugh
If you don't believe the past.
It's just one joke too few,
But very serious to others
With whom had a clue of one's view.
So do you?

Words describe
While emotions are undescribable.
Divide, multiply, add three,
Then subtract the undividable.
Equals nothing, but three
In any intellectual head, but me.
Hurts to be different, clueless,
Yet flawless
In my own thought process.
Stopping the insanity
Hoping one day to progress.
Stay stressed
For one minor reason
Then goes on to the next.
Turmoil happens
On a day to day basis,
While looking for hope.
For some reason can't cope,
Just do nothing but walk and mope.
It's just one joke to few,
But very serious to others
With whom had a clue of one's view.
So do you?

Too nervous to be serious,
Hoping I'm going through some period.
Period of life that shall end
While a new sentence awaits.
Hoping fate leaves a trace
Of an exclamation mark ending that space.
No question just a solid answer
Is mentioned in this dimension.
New dimension while clenching
Hoping to hold on,
To never fall.
Head high,
Trying to break through
A thick wall.
To call it a miracle
Would simplify the matter
And make it worse.
Just thirst
The day I disperse
And end that hurt.
It's just one joke to few,
But very serious to others
With whom had a clue of one's view.
So do you?

Color Blind

Can love be blind, or am I blind for even believing? I must be deaf and dumb as well to think that go to hell meant you wanted me more than I wanted you. Even in my daydreams of you, rejection isn't cold just a way of playing the cat and mouse game of voodoo. Torture, brutal and unjust, but makes the love lust more for the untouched. Clutch reality as fantasies fantasized by me are of looking into your soul through those brown eyes, but a goal that may never be attained. Must gain a grip, I'm sinking my own battle ship but I won't strip what I've longed for in the years that I have known you, or could it be only days? Dazed and amazed at how a crush could feel so real, but fade just like the sun on an autumn day. So quick, so fast, never touched your lips, never touched your mass love for something that may never be created again.

So I ask can love be blind?

I'm blinded by your sight, but love isn't a one way street, nor a teenage game played by me. Third degree burns, the smell of flesh as it cooks like a flame broiled Whopper. Stopper, no letter go, just another bopper I know.
Burnt by someone lost, thought it was special until the meat seared when you said I'm out of here, but so scared. I don't think love is blind, but has a navigation system that is intertwined with lust. Must I try again, but my heart will never mend. Send my best wishes to you for I played the fool tragically. Reality lost for a moment thinking something special were to unfold like origami. Somebody stop me for I will ramble on for eternity thinking you still hold the key. Finally I see that love isn't blind it's just picky and it seems that I'm not worthy. Who's to say if you were my true love anyway? If not, then where does this mystical creature lay? I've been waiting a lifetime to make that journey.
So I ask one more time...

Could love be blind?
Hey Love. Help me see...

Return

When does the summer white snow fall from the sky below?
For this was the predicted return date of she.
When shall hell freeze over and there be a patch of four leaf clovers?
For this was the predicted return date of she.
Eternity shall pass as the hourglass becomes a day and I make a mistake,
She may never return on any date.
When is the next time the moon shall meet the ocean, hoping soon,
For this shall be the date I pray for her return.
Maybe dumb was I to reply that she wasn't the only one in my eyes,
For she shall leave my heart here to yearn.
One mistake made now there will be no forgiveness just a loss,
She may never return on any date.
If the summer white snow ever falls from the sky below,
I shall wait by my bedside with my eyes open wide for her return.
And if hell ever freezes over and I see a patch of four leaf clovers,
I shall wait on my porch with eyes teary and my heart feeling like a torch,

Awaiting her return...

Find You

Souls rising from unforgiving words surmised
From a surprised feeling despised
By those who wait for the tide;
Ride the wave but a slave to the crave
Of seeing you smile while we lay;
Play in ways that could be construed
As a sin but passion driven hoping
To be living my life for you;
Do what we do so who is to say
That this May warmth I feel isn't real,
But don't know if you really want to stay;
Days pass like grains of sand in an hour glass
But last in my mind for eternity
So I will be eternally blinded by the constant reminder
Of you not her; life now is only a blur,
Never occurred to me that you would leave
So abruptly and as fast as I can recall a memory
Of you, now you're gone; the sunlight beams thrust upon me
As a constant blinder because no matter where I look
I can't find her, find you...

Regret

Questions go unanswered
In this journey we call life.
Making sense of the insensible.
Regretting the unregretful.
Forgetting the unforgettable.
My love to you,
Shattered like safety glass.
Memories are held together
In one fragmented mass.
What once was one piece
Now held together from
The memory of your laugh.
And one thin sheet holds
That mental picture of you.

Why did I say what I said.
Why did you do what you did?
Why, the only question in my head?
Wanted a story book ending
For you and me.
Now all I have is pieces of you,
But must I let it be?
Can't let go, but I must.
Won't let go,
Your trust in me,
My trust in you is gone.
What are we to do?
You cheated on me,
I lied to you.
I knew I should of told the truth
Spent more time with you,
But I had no clue.
How this was gonna end.
Now all I do is regret...
Not being just friends.

Abyss

Heighten sense of touch.
Do you feel that?
Is the pain deep enough?
It hurts too much to hear your voice.
This plum reminds me of your lips.
So moist.
I feel numb when my memories of you fade.
But never completely go away.
Always returning stronger each and every day.
What can I do to shake this obsession?
Maybe see you one more time.
Feel another one of your rejections.
So many of those that my mind has a collection.
Still remind myself of the good times we shared.
The bad times on the back burner.
I never really cared.
Who reminisces on those anyway?
Those three words I want to hear you say.
Let those be something worthwhile.
Those words will never leave your lips.
I know that isn't your style.
But can I at least get a kiss?
Wishful thinking as my mind falls deeper...
Within this endless black hole of an abyss.