Why Apologize?

How can I say good-bye when I've barely said hello? Afraid of the love below the bellows of an ego torn. Written with temptation of an eager satanistic monotone. I want to let you go, but something keeps pulling me back like a magnet, gravity pulling me to the ground, sound from one ear to the next. Check the dotted line signed but not sealed and delivered when I should have at dinner that night. Lifted with evil tendencies and games you play, but lay in the bed and pray we can mend this fight the next day. As tomorrow comes with the sorrow of bargaining another plea to see if you could forgive me just one more time. But why must I apologize when the forgiving should be mine?


Bought, borrowed, begging on knees holding onto your calves. Plea to take your reign of terror away. Why couldn't today be like last year's yesterday? Bought you that necklace, the ring, everything I could and borrowed the followed dream of yours. Declining happiness saddened by yesterday's tomorrow with an impression of nails on my back. Those scratches, those scars will linger through the lonely night thoughts of attacks that were in fact of a good nature. Good behavior being so naughty, dirty enough to throw into a high-pressurized washer. Realized my own demise was following you into the deep end promising the altar. But that was the one day I was in dire need of your love below. And now I'm left with one last tomorrow watching you leave with sorrow while bargaining another plea to see if you could forgive me just one more time. But why must I apologize when the forgiving should be mine?

Left with nothing, a new beginning, should see the light at the end of an unforeseen tunnel. Funnel feelings through a filter as the rose pedals of hope wilt into the soft pavement, soil. I've done everything to keep this love going, but the betrayal was unspeakable like an elephant who consumed the room. You ruined the purity of our love by tarnishing the one thing that fit like a glove. I thought above it all you would never deceive me. I believe in we and the happiness that a new tomorrow brings. Now, empty, black hole deposited dust attracted to my heart as it rings, beats, and rapidly decays. If I may say that there will be no apologies just broken aggravated speech thrown from this spout of a mouth. "GET THE FUCK OFF MY COUCH AND GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!"